Just Be Yourself

我的18岁生日

2011-08-08T01:31:00.000-07:00

7月24日
在此，我先要感谢我妈妈冒着生命危险把我这顽固的小家伙给生出来。因你有我！妈妈你是最棒的！对不起，爸爸之前说了伤害你的话。我真的没有意的，你那宽容的心还是原谅了我。真的很对不起，爸，您是我最敬爱的人了！好想紧紧地抱着你，但我没有勇气做到！您知道我喜欢吃cheese cake特地去La Manila买，店主说卖完了如果要的话就要等45分钟。结果，您选择了等。爸爸我真的很爱你！我很爱我的家人！家人永远是切不断的亲情。这几年来我生日的时候哥哥都没有什么表态，今年他出乎我意料，他竟然送我海绵宝宝的娃娃给我！他还说在time square时看到很多海绵宝宝，但是就是没有买给我。哎呀..原来在我家人和我庆祝的时候他给了我一个惊喜！爱你的啦！
哥哥送的
7月26日
生日的前一天，姐姐帮我庆祝我的生日，我们到了1U,一直逗来逗去不知吃什么好，最后决定吃fish&co的餐厅。她请我吃哦^^虽然我们经常都不合但吵完了后我还是那样的爱你的。只是不敢做出第一步，不主动。对不起。

7月27日
这天是我之前最害怕的日子了，脑袋想了很多很多负面的东西。真是的...还有我竟然收到了我最思念的思苓的生日祝福卡，虽然你不在中华了，我们几乎整半年没见面了，真的很想念你！我是你第一个让你亲自做的生日卡，感动的啦！虽然不能从你的手中收到这卡片，但我还是那样的感动！我非常谢谢我的朋友，他们帮我庆祝我的生日，虽然大家当天都很累但我还是很感谢你们陪我度过我的生日。谢谢婷婷帮我筹备我的小型生日派对，对不起一直烦你谁有去。不好意识啦..真的很想知道嘛~婷婷希望我们的友谊能长久！很喜欢你啊！可爱哦！！！><还有我亲爱的嘉敏啊~为了我骗舍监，申请外出等。真的有点麻烦哦~你那真诚的心我领悟了啦^^勇峰为了我向爸爸借了7人座的车，目的是不要我们女生搭公共车，谢谢你的啦！希望你和她快点好回了，不然我还是会有点内疚的。谢谢颖婷和marcus的到来，怕赛车竟然提前到等了整整一粒钟酱咯~还有啊..方菁和了咖啡竟然呕吐，又没喝酒==好啦知道你的胃接受不到啦。谢谢hot dog为了我的生日一个人过那漆黑的桥才能回到家，帅的啦！谢谢升吉为了我没得吃家里的饭酱咯=.= 还有你们也为我的生日准备了我最喜欢的蛋糕！La Manila的Marble cheese cake <3 惊喜来的哦=P
思苓送的卡嘉敏和颖婷送的礼物婷婷和方菁送的礼物marcus送的礼物
7月30日
学会朋友帮我庆祝生日叻~期待期待！！谢谢他们的到来哦！谢谢志康送我回家，才发现我们都没有跟你拍照叻，因为你在跟某人谈天=（明俊你真的长大啦！2012的副主席不好当，要加倍努力哦！你一定行！还有那班高三的谢谢你们花了不少钱吃了这餐！谢谢！还有耀宗的到来，好久不见的朋友！何时又能见面呢？
苑琳：其实啊~你是一个让人有种安全感的朋友也是一个很好的聆听者，有机会的话我想像那天那样一起吃东西，散步，聊天，谈心事！真的很难得的机会来的！之从高一年尾开始我们就很好过也有不好过，虽然那段期间真的伤了你的心也影响你的学业，真的很抱歉！但是我还是把你当成是我最要好的朋友！不要跟别人比较谁比较好，每个人有每个人特点，我就是喜欢你的特点！记得我的话，不要比较！我永远都是那么的喜欢你的！给点自信好吗？谢谢你都有把我所说的都记在心里。你精细，辛苦筹备的生日短篇，secret recipe的marble cheese，派对，卡！！！真的很感谢你哦！太感动了！

苑琳送的

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嘉敏：辛苦你帮我制作一个蛮大张的海绵宝宝卡，好得意哦^^不要哭啦~我什么都没看见你不要自责啦。有惊喜到啦！爱你哦(我平时对你说的语调）^^<3 嘉敏做的班上生日卡

Fang Jing birthday

2011-05-30T21:54:00.000-07:00

Woohoo! 2 weeks holidays. Actually i hate holidays cause make me feel like a lazy person. Don't know what to do...Watch series, play computer and yet i really don't know what to do. Last friday went for movie with Teng Teng and Fang Jing we watched Pirates of the Caribbean. It was queit boring i personally dislike this movie because it was totally pointless =( I hate those mermaids they looks so beautiful and kind but they were evil >.< argghhhh.... After movie we prepare for ourself ready to go for dinner. We had our dinner at Manjalara steamboat =) yea~ i Like steamboat soooo much ^^ The purpose was celebrated our Fang Jing's birthday!!! Hooray~ I won't spell out her age here =P Teng Teng gave her a lot of surprise! You know what "SPONGE BOB CAKE"!!! It was definitely CUTE!!! Like it so much!! but we ate the sponge bob =( pity bob..

After celebrate we went to desa park. Teng showed her a video ~~~ nice memory ...hmm..i think she love it so much. we spend the whole day with her. Yea~ i back home around 11:30 pm.. quiet tired.

KL Towerthon

2011-05-09T02:11:00.000-07:00

THE THRILL BEGINS AFTER SUNDOWN

Yes! All of us were succeed

Nice shot what.

Took it from the top of the Kl Tower

Well Done! Finally I did IT~

On the phone still wanna take photo -.-

Wow..KLCC tower was behind of you girls..=)

Three of us~ WE MAKE IT!

1/5

2011-05-01T00:23:00.000-07:00

Oh no!

I'm getting fatter and fatter!

My face looks round (double chin)

My school uniform quiet tight><

It's time to lose weight now.

On Diet!

Exercise Exercise Exercise

Vegetarian Vegetarian Vegetarian

Lemon Lemon Lemon

Water Water Water

Fruit Fruit Fruit

Lastly i wanna to look slim when i wear my jeans

JY!

30/4

2011-04-29T21:14:00.000-07:00

Attitude and temper are the most important in our life. If we didn't get it well as it we'll in an unfavorable situation. It's truly advise. I'm so suffering of my communication. Hardly to communicate with others. Not everyone knew that what are we thinking. We must concern to others and be nice with them. Life full of colours are so beautiful and perfect! I wish it too =) May I? We can't change anything that were past, we can do is just only review oursleves. And what, give a friendly smile to others is the way to make our life more successful and more happiness. From now onward, i'm going to smile to others that i try my best, wish to enjoy my happiness.

24/4

2011-04-24T04:48:00.000-07:00

Today wake up at usual time although it was Sunday. I went for the Kwong Tong Jogathon. The distance were 10km. Actually i didn't feel any tired and annoy during the whole journey. I went there with Yuanlin and meet there with Jiayi. At first we walk together but walk till 20min i ran and walked alone. It was quiet amazing, enjoyed the scene, the crowd, the people and alone. I spend 2 hours to finish the journey, they finish around two and the half hours. I waited them at the terminal point quiet boring at there just kept looking and waiting for them. After that, we went back home. After back home, i take bath and sleep. Sleep untill 6 p.m haha..I was extremely tired now =(

21/4

2011-04-21T03:09:00.000-07:00

Today was a terrible day! Bad mood for the whole day! Because of him, exam and him! what the sucks feeling was that! I just wanna to escape as far as I can. I'm always the stranger who pass by you. I really can't feel any happiness around me what a dull and sadness life it was! What is he thinking in his mind? I just can't refuse myself to stop thinking of him. I'm really falling in love! WTH..long long time i had no this type of sucks feeling..and this was the second times! If I still continue the way i do i bet that i'm gonna to collapse la..Oh no no no.. Hmm...feeling my classmates are not friendly anymore, why have this problem? Studies? seperate lots of "Gang"? Hope is not this stupid and dumb reason lar~ My economic exam was done like a shit! Fail == hope miracles will happen on me..haha..what a innocent mind == i can't smile anymore =( girls can u help me? I'm so down right now =(

14/4

2011-04-14T03:10:00.000-07:00

Arghh.. what a teribble feeling now my mind just keep appearing those negative things. This is life. Life is not as easy as we think of it, what we did, we talk, we act, we think have to be responsible of it. And what, this is the main factor made me so annoying =( Recently somethings are not going very well to me, family, studies, friends, love and blah blah blah.. I just wanna to shout out loudly just to relax my mood. I'm dreaming of i'm at the beach now watching the dark blue sea, look up at the sky seeing the clouds,the reflection of the sun light from the surface of the sea and enjoying the twilight. What a wonderful view it is but it won't happen. If i am a bird, i maybe so freedom now and my mind are not complicacy anymore, maybe. I hope my life is going better soon. And what you're the one who can make me happy. I hope the day will come true. Keep dreaming of you, it's not easy to spell out for you. Guys u know what, finally i knew what's my hobby is, singing. I just like to sing, singing is the way can make my mood in a fully relax condition. I cut my hair it was super noob now>< what a mushroom head again appear on my head == sigh..i was completely loss my confidence now! An ugly and black girl am i. huh..what to do? Everyone describe me "cute" == FEDUP i hate it! I really cant stand my hair style now! When are u going to grow longer?! No! When i can leave chong hwa! This is the most important point! RULES AND REGULATION.. I HATE IT! No point i'm still a secondary student now, i gonna to obey it..Hmm..wait the time pass..pass and pass..

31/3

2011-03-31T04:52:00.000-07:00

Ha! This morning i received McD breakfast from yuan lin

that had been promotion for 1 month ago

and today was the last day.

All my friends and family were insane about this promotion.

== Is that really worth of?

Maybe..haha.

After school i hung out with my st.john buddies

to send off our M.I.C, Chi Kang.

Had a farewell for him.

Hmm..left one again..AGAIN..

Suck feeling.

Anyway i will inured it.

Hey, Chi Kang

The paper i wrote it to you must keep properly lar.. dude

Do not lost it! And i'm here to wish you all the best!

Just now i went for facial that nearby my mum's office!

aha! AWESOME!

This Saturday our school is going to held a carnival

Woohoo! So exciting!

5 years in Chong Hwa didn't really enjoy this carnival before

because of duty lar, was being a committee lar, blah blah blah..

And now i can really enjoy it =)

Yeah~

Gonna to be CRAZY

2011-03-30T01:49:00.000-07:00

I'm so depress, worry and confusing the way in my studies! Am I suitable to continue my senior middle 3? But no choice i have to continue it no selection for me. If can I just wanna to leave Chong Hwa now. It's really tiring and stress for me. Can I really get 5Bs in my UEC result? Is that really easy for you guys? ARGH! Just wanna to evacuate this type of situation and give up my senior middle 3. "Rather than worry about my studies, why not take an actual action to study hard. Don't waste my parent's money and time.Think wisely , finish my SM3 and get my graduate certificate and UEC certificate. And only think what course you're going to take." Yuan Ling told me. She arouse me and render me an effort to finish my SM3. Because of the graduate certificate and UEC certificate I must put lots of effort. "Everyday is exam day" "Time and tide wait for no man" GAMBATEH to my self.

17/3

2011-03-17T05:24:00.000-07:00

Friendship Forever

Today hang out with Jia mean and.....HUI LING

wakaka long time no see!

Although we chat in skype every night==

But i can touch her body.

We shop for what?

nahnah..i don't know =)

Quiet rush cause wanna to avoid traffic jam.

we had our lunch at Papa John's Pizza!

I prefer papa john's pizza to pizza hut.

We ordered Fisherman's Catch

Potato Wedges!
Mix with the sause.
Sweet and spicy chicken wings

Breadsticks.The garlic sause is just so TASTY!

Overall the price is just reasonable and the foods are delicious.

Must try!

14/3

2011-03-17T04:39:00.000-07:00

By right i'm go for traning.

I'm not.

Cause i already registered the cupcake contest.

I'm not really enjoyed the process

because there was a little argument among us.

sighed..

Although had an argument but i learnt somethings

Eg: Trade marks, Classic Design, Creativity

can u see an arrow?

My mind can't flash back what's the name of the chocolate.

But the characteristic is the packaging of Trianglular.

The copyright of the artistic. Mona lisa.

28/02

2011-02-28T18:40:00.000-08:00

This morning everyone were asking me what's wrong with me.Because i was showing out my worried face. Actually i'm praying for him for the whole morning. And we had a draw lots for our seat and it was so coincidence. My seat is just beside with jia mean and chloe's seat is just beside with von. What a wonderful match! So, the day after tommorow i'm going to sit with jia mean =) Just now searched for few songs and i just realize that "back to december" by Taylor Swift is just so cool.Especially her brand new hair style!

27/02

2011-02-27T22:05:00.000-08:00

Just now sign in my facebook, the notification just notice about 6A Xin page. Then i click and see,the wall wrote gonna to change our seat! Again. I'm so fearing of that. Can't imagine that the day after tommorow i'm gonna to sit with who. What a terrible feeling is that. Today just back from Ipoh, my cousin married! Wish her new life is going good and wonderful. These few days,my mind always appeared some cases that difficult to solve. I'm so depressed of it. Kept appeared in my mind. Sad =( Instead of my feeling is just listen to the music. That's the way i can do. And went to hospital accompany my dearest,let him know he's not alone! We're always beside you! God bless...Have some talks with jia mean through the phone. She didn't back home for 2 weeks what a pity girl. Hmm..this week we're sitting a lot of exam, English, Book-keeping, Economic. Argh...

Everything gonna to be Fine

2011-02-23T03:03:00.000-08:00

Every morning i have to wake up early at 5:30 am. It's quiet early for me. Since after chinese new year my friend that stay in DPC too start to fetch me every morning.I think no ones else know what is the reason why =( sad case. I don't wanna to spread out my feeling to others, cause they can't help me anything. And i just hidding my feelings in my heart. What can i do is just pray for him. I never expect that everything is perfect, i just hope people who all around me is healthy. Just smile =)

The day we celebrate with Yin Teng

2011-02-19T06:52:00.000-08:00

Tutti Frutti

The Body shop gift, that i gave it to her

Happy Birthday dear

We had our dinner in Seoul Garden

Bought from Kitschen Cost RM69.90

Ha! Today i should go for activity,but i'm not.Celebrate Mango's birthday at 1U. We go for shopping,Tutti Fruity,shop for sandals,take photos and Soul Garden.Awesome! What a Great Day!!!

18/02

2011-02-18T03:24:00.000-08:00

Gosh! I cut my hair yesterday! Everybody saw me said that i'm "cute". I can't stand someone describing me "CUTE" i hate it!Cute is not suitable for me!And u know what,the last 5 minutes someone said my fringe hair looks like bitten by dog! Tomorrow we are going to celebrate mango birthday,and i'm not going to take any photo for myself because of my stupid fringe hair! Oh yeah~Soul garden i'm coming =)
Today happened an incident that made me felt embarrass:
Last period is BM
BM teacher was giving a lesson to us
Suddenly power failure for 2~3 seconds
And my 1st response was "yeah!!!"
After i cheer, the electricity was going normal
The whole class laughed at me and teacher looked at me
Teacher said: "Saya akan tolak markah kamu"
And ZiSeng punished me(push my head down on my desk then shake my head)
And i just kept laughing =D
What a crazy girl am i

16/02

2011-02-16T04:10:00.000-08:00

Ok..Finally,holidays were over and i swear that i have to packed my mood back.At school nothing special happened and it's quiet a boring school life.I felt regret that i choose the way to study senior 3.Look those friends that leave chong hwa and quiet free doing nothing and some of them start their Foundation.I can't imagine that how's the college life,speaking english? One thing that always make me suffering is what am i goin to study after getting uec result? Am i useless? Still don't know what am i intrested of.And my family always ask me to study nursing especially my daddy and brother.=( Hate nursing! No way!

=P

2011-02-14T07:22:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow is a holiday.I hate holiday,it made me become lazier.Haha,today is a
valantine's day.Is a memoriable day to those couples. Wish them have a romantic night.Such as having dinner.I think that's all.Sorry that i'm not well known about it and I wanna to mention - I'm AVAILABLE!!Haha! Joking la~ Yesterday went back to Ipoh.I love my Grandma the most!! The Most! I hold tight her hand,kiss her cheek,smell her hair.That's my lovely Grandma. I felt so happiness with it.I always miss her,whenever i'm on the way back to Kl, my eyes were totaly blur,looking outside the window thinking of her. I hate this feeling.Hidding the feeling although my siblings know that i'm gonna to cry softly.I miss her and love her =)I feel that senior 3 is not easy.Especially math and Book-keeping.I always absent on Monday and book-keeping periods are fall on monday.So that i miss many part,difficult to revision it! These subjects gonna to kill me.Anyway,i admit that i'm lazy.But i told myself after chinese new year i'm gonna to pack my mood back to study hard.Just try my best.
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY =D

11/03

2011-01-03T00:33:00.000-08:00

Finally exam was over. phew...
The first 2 days i'm super duple tired!
Tired till no ability to ponder over my exam paper!
Gosh! Going to get death result !

Tomorrow i'm going to education fair.
No purpose i'm being there actually.
Just for fun relaxing my mood.
And i'm so happy can meet my lovely becca
I hope that i can go for black swan film.
Hope so.

I like your tan skin.
And i wish to be with you.

Recently,i'm crazing of singing.
On my computer kept singing the famous songs
eg:colors of the wind, reflection,just the way u are, what's my name,etc.
gosh! i like to SING!
If u ask me what's my hobby i'll tell u is Singing.
Nice life=)

I like my senior 3 life.
especially with my friends
Jia Mean
i kept bullying her
said her she is a fierce girl.
Arghh..lady gaga==
Hui Von
our relation is getting better and better
i wanna to go ur party!
Cool man...paparich =)
Yi Jie
yer..lala er..
haha..keep saying those rude words
and i'll collect money from her
i won't used it just help her to collect those money
till the year end and it'll get a large amount
Am i right?
Hmm..
i miss someone
i didn't find her for long time.
i think i'll manage my time to find her.

i'm so exciting for next saturday and sunday
i'm going to the fo tang.
what's it?
i have no ideal to imagine what's it.
But i'll try it =)